Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Dis-Oriented

Well it’s taken me a little longer than I anticipated to get a blog post up of me actually at Moody. Things have been crazy.

I flew into Midway Airport on Wednesday afternoon. Circling the airport and seeing Chicago from the air caused me to smile. It’s big. I landed in the late afternoon and was picked up at the airport by Moody students, who had been shuttling to and from campus since early in the morning, they were both looking slightly sleep deprived. We passed Soldier Field and drove through the downtown area on our way to campus. Before I knew it, we had pulled up to 820 N. Lasalle Blvd. The Moody Bible Institute.

Things continued to move fast as I hauled my stuff to my dorm room to find that two of my aunts had graciously driven down from Wisconsin to help me move in. An hour of unpacking and meeting people later I was headed for dinner.

My first Moody dinner was a memorable experience. I knew absolutely no one. I had come in a little later than most new students and wasn’t familiar with the campus or any of the RA’s yet. I finally found a place to sit with some people, and managed to quietly get through my first meal. It was painfully awkward.

After dinner I went back to my dorm room and finished straightening things up. My roommate was not arriving back for several more days so I had the place to myself. At seven that night we had a dedication ceremony for the new students. The president of the school stood up and spoke about the coming year.

He said that the Moody Bible Institute was the premier bible school in the world, and studying here was a privilege and honor. He said that for every student sitting in the room, there were three or four who hadn’t been accepted. He instilled in me a feeling of responsibility about studying here at Moody. Not to take it lightly but rather work hard because I’ve been blessed to be able to study here.

After all the planned events were over, I headed back to my room and began meeting guys on my floor. We all walked down to the beach and played ultimate Frisbee. I’ve never played with a backdrop like the Chicago Skyline at night before. I don’t think I caught a single pass, I was too lost in the lights behind me. Chicago is beautiful.

Thursday began our official orientation. From the time I woke up to dinner time was scheduled orientation classes, tours, and the usual craziness involved in moving in four hundred brand new students.

At Moody each floor in the guys dorm is paired up with a floor in the girls dorm, called our Sister floor. Throughout the year we do Bro/Sis events with them etc. Thursday night was the first of these, we all went down to a park and played games including kickball. Once again, I was easily distracted by the city lights.

One of my favorite things about Chicago is that when the sun sets, it doesn’t mean the city goes to sleep. The beach has huge spotlights enabling us to play ultimate Frisbee late into the evening, the park we played at was the same way, lights so we could see everything we did.

Friday was more of the same, orientation and more orientation. The coolest part of all of it to me was to see the different faculty speak. We heard from everybody, from President Nyquist, to the dean of students, to the food services, public safety and the finances office. Each person that spoke shared something in common, they all said if it weren’t for the students they wouldn’t be here. At Moody everyone really wants to see you succeed. Everyone who works here is dedicated to the lives of the students. It’s awesome to have that kind of backing, and to know that everyone who works here is on our side.

Friday night we were all invited to a game and skit night put on by the older students for our entertainment. It was pretty funny, they preformed skits about health services and made fun of all of us freshman moving in.

Saturday was finally a day to sleep in a little and then we broke up into our orientation groups and competed in an X-Games. My team didn’t win, but I still had fun competing and continuing to get to know people.

Sunday was a much needed day off with not much planned. I have explored the city a few times and built some good relationships. Classes started Monday, but more on that later.

Through all of this God has been faithful. One of the theme songs here at Moody is the old hymn, ‘Great is Thy Faithfulness’. We’ve already sung it several times and at first I didn’t like it because of the traditional sound it had. However, as we’ve worshiped with it the words have really begun to resonate with me.

“All I have needed, Thy hand hath provided. Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me.”

It’s true. God is faithful, everything I’ve needed has been provided for so far. God is with me, and not only with me but actively helping me and being faithful to me. We serve a great God.

A prayer request is just that I continue to adjust to fitting in here. Back home I had a clear cut role, and knew exactly who I was and how I fit in the church, youth group, home and other places. Here everything is different, it feels as though everyone is a leader and I’m just lost in the sea of faces. I know God has a plan, and I realize that this is an adjusting time in my life. Prayer in that area would be greatly appreciated.

Sorry for the long entry, but I wanted to catch up on what’s been going on recently.

Thanks for the prayers!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Faith & Future

I have 4 days left in Missoula. 4 days. Time is a funny thing, it can move so fast or so slow yet it’s constant. We can’t control it, only take advantage of the time we have. The last few months have sped by for me and I still can’t believe I’m leaving soon. There are a lot of unknowns ahead of me. More than I care to think about to be honest. There is a ton I don’t know, and won’t know until I experience it. I have to do my part in preparation but in the end, Chicago is going to rip my face off, no matter what. The past few days have been days of anxiousness. I don’t really know what I’m getting into, and I’m definitely nervous about a lot of things. How I’m going to pay for school for the next four years, how I’m going to adjust to being in downtown Chicago. I’m nervous about starting completely over with friends and school, and really my life. There’s excitement too, I’m excited to see what God is going to do. I’m excited to be taking steps toward my future in ministry. Yet, there’s still an anxious spirit within me.

As I think about it, I have many unknowns in my future, but that’s where faith comes in. Without unknowns in my life, there would be no need for faith. I want to be defined as a man of faith, and to be that I have to be willing to step out of my comfort zone, throw myself out into the open, and trust God will be with me.

I heard it said once, that the end goal of faith is to no longer need it. I have faith in Jesus Christ, yet when I see Him one day I will no longer need my faith in Him. My faith is what will save me in the end, but it will no longer be needed. Having served its purpose I will be able to live without faith. Oh, how wonderful it will be to no longer need faith but rather to be close to the living God, to walk with Him on the streets of gold, to see His splendor and majesty before me!

I was flipping through the New Testament searching for a verse recently, when I came across one of my favorite passages of scripture. Matthew 6:25-34 says this:

"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”


After I read this passage, I literally laughed out loud at myself. To think I wasn’t trusting God with everything. It’s still funny to me. Right here, Jesus promises that His Father knows what we need even more than we do, and he’s fully aware of everything going on. He knows the number of hairs on our heads, and He promises to take care of His children.

These verses have been a place of freedom for me, freedom from all my worries and fears. They have been a shield, a rock against the waves. I thank God that He knows all, and that His hand is in my life. God knows what I’m doing, and where I’m going, and He is with me all the way. This doesn’t mean I won’t face anything difficult in school, or that I won’t have to struggle through things, but it does mean that He is with me. He is sovereign, and He loves me.

One of my favorite new worship songs is Chris Tomlin’s Our God. The lyrics are powerful and comforting.

Water you turned into wine, opened the eyes of the blind there's no one like you none like You!Into the darkness you shine out of the ashes we rise there's no one like you none like You!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
Into the darkness you shine out of the ashes we rise there's no one like you none like You!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.
And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.
What could stand against.
Our God is greater, our God is stronger,
God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.
And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.
Then what could stand against.
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

The Journey

As of today I have exactly a month before my first day in Chicago, August 18th is the date that orientation starts. As I look forward to what is coming, I am so glad for the journey that God is taking me on.

It was when I was in eighth grade that I first started thinking God had more for me in my life that I originally thought. Up to that point I hadn’t considered my future too seriously, other than to think I wanted to be a teacher or basketball coach.

As I moved into my freshman year of high school, my walk with God began to deepen and grow. I began to realize that my future was not really mine, but God’s, and my job was to figure out what He wanted me to do with it.

I didn’t feel a direct calling until I started considering ministry as an option for my future. As my love for Christ grew, my desire to live for Him and share Him also grew. I can’t remember a particular instance that changed my thinking, but I do know that somewhere in my sophomore year of high school I knew that God wanted me to give Him my life and become a pastor. I felt Him press on me youth ministry in particular.

As believers there are certain things all of us are commanded to do, one of these being surrendering our lives to Christ and His control. Not everybody is called into full time or part time vocational ministry; however all of us are called to be ministers to those around us. We are commanded to share Christ’s love, we are commanded to share the gospel. We are commanded to give our hearts, soul, mind and strength to God. I felt a particular calling from God to be in full time ministry, in a church, as a pastor. I believe that more young believers should seek God to see if ministry is where they’re called.

Through high school God did nothing but confirm for me my calling. He combined my passion for youth, and love for Him. God didn’t give me a desire to be with and teach youth, and not want me to use it. He has given me my desires and abilities for His glory and His kingdom. Right now, I’m sure that this is what God wants for me. If in the future I feel differently then I am open and ready to follow His voice where he leads me. Everything I have is from God, and so I owe everything back to Him. He is the leader of my life, and I will follow God.

Eventually my choices for colleges came down to Bethlehem Baptist College in Minnesota, Crown College, Moody Bible Institute, or the University of Montana. I visited each school, spent time studying them, and prayed fervently for God to show me where He wanted me to go. I had a deadline of May 1st because of scholarship options and admissions deadlines. Daily I asked God to show me where to go, and daily nothing happened.

I began to think that God would never show me, and I’d have to make the decision by myself, which didn’t make sense to me because all I wanted to do was follow His will wherever it was. I couldn’t understand why God wouldn’t just show me where to go.

It was the morning of April 24th that God spoke to me. I was having a quiet time and felt the Holy Spirit put Moody Bible Institute on my heart. I told God that I would follow His voice.

Within the next two weeks of my decision God confirmed my choice several times over through things that happened in my life such as generous support from friends and family, and confirmation through prayer and His word. Sometimes God waits for us to make a step of faith, before confirming it in our lives. I am sure now, that Chicago is where God is leading me. I can’t wait to see what He has in store for me.

To Him be the glory and dominion forever and ever amen.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

My Greatest Fear

Recently I was posed the question, what is my greatest fear? After a few minutes of thought I struggled to find an answer that I felt answered the question fairly. The idea of drowning has always terrified me, but is that really my greatest fear? I don’t like being alone, but surely that wasn’t my greatest fear either?

In Revelation 3 God writes a letter to the church in Laodicea describing the state of their soul. Verses 15-17 say this:

“I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth. For you say, I am rich, I have prospered, and I need nothing, not realizing that you are wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked.”

This is God, the God of the universe who created all things, and through whom all things live and die, saying He will spit the lukewarm out of His mouth! The first time I read this verse it penetrated my soul. How often am I lukewarm? How often do I go through the motions of my life and faith without giving God a thought? The bible says that God will spit the lukewarm out of His mouth; they have no place in the Kingdom of Heaven.

Matthew 7:21-23 says this:

"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?' And then will I declare to them, 'I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.'

This verse sends chills down my spine. There will come a day when God will tell people who are sure that they are going to heaven, that He never knew them. That their works, although they attached His name to them, were done in vain. This is by no means to say that we are saved by works, but it is to say that faith without works is dead. We are saved by faith alone, and that faith will be accompanied by our works and a life devoted to God.

Francis Chan, in his book Crazy Love states that there is no such thing as a lukewarm Christian. But rather a believer in the Lord Jesus Christ, refuses to be lukewarm, and makes war against the flesh in order to pursue Christ.

The beauty of our struggle against flesh is that where we fall short, and we will, Christ’s blood covers us and we are made pure and holy before Him. This does not stop up us from pursuing Him, but should drive us closer to Him as we become more aware of His grace and love that He lavishes upon us. How great is our God!

Although at the time I couldn’t figure it out, I now know that my greatest fear in life, is being lukewarm, and one day having God say to me ‘I never knew you’. I don’t want to waste a moment of my life. In his song The Motions, Christian artist Matthew West screams out, “I don’t want to go through the motions, I don’t want to go one more day, without your all consuming, passion inside of me.” Many times I have made this the prayer of my heart, not to go through the motions, but to use my everything to glorify the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

Lord don’t let me be lukewarm.

I was also recently asked if I was scared to pack up and move 1500 miles away to Chicago, the third largest city in the country, where I didn’t know a single person. Am I anxious? Yes. Nervous? Sure. Scared? No I’m not scared because I know that God is with me and not only with me, but guiding my steps and watching over me. Not to say I’m sure that I’ll be safe, or sure that everything will work out the way I envision it, but I am sure that the God who knows the number of hairs on my head is with me always. To Him be the glory, forever amen.